Sometimes I think they only come out at night.
But they’re not blind to broad daylight.
In fact, that’s where they like to hide the most.
Things we may cherish, that we hold over ourselves.
Sometimes not even realizing it…
They have the ability to deform our thoughts into making us believe
we have no control of our next move.
I believe the wildest part is,
That sometimes our demons are our truths.
What do we consider to be demons? Are they creatures that only come out at night? Spirits maybe? Or can the reside in the capsules of human beings? Merriam Webster defines demon as a source or agent of evil, harm, distress, or ruin. There is no physical definition of what they are. So, for some people this may be drug addiction, mental struggles, or even bad habits we don’t want to let go can form into some sort of demon complex in our mind, no matter how grand or simple it may be. Once you feel that you must HAVE it in your life over everything, that is the persuasion of evil & it may become toxic to your soul. Every person faces different demons of their own but they all have the same sly trick. They have the valency to make you believe that you are not in control of your own choices. To make you feel weak or less than in the choices you make. Sometimes it may feel as though they are hovering over you, taking control of your very movements to satisfy their evil demeanor disregarding your health and existence. The overwhelming part is that they will continue to play tricks on your very existence until the day our flesh return back to dust. It is an inevitable continuous battle. When we fall into the hands of our demons we choose to not take control of our choices anymore. & from time to time, letting go of the wheel seems to be a lot easier than driving through hills, bumps, and potholes on a road we are hardly so certain about. This battle requires you to be strong every step of the way… but sometimes that’s tiring. I don’t want to keep fighting. My soul is starting to get weak. I’m doubtful, fearful, & ready to give in. Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?
“A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.
Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.” Eph. 6:10-18
Never forget that our soul is far stronger than any demon we have ever faced in the past, demons we face in the present, and the ones waiting for us in our future. Let us not be fearful, for our choices and strength come from the soul, not the flesh. The guidance of the flesh resides in the power of our Being.
I decided to take control of my choices this year by engaging in my own fast during the Ramadan period. I chose to give up smoking weed during this time. I don’t think I have a strong dependency on smoking in comparison to a lot of other smokers I know but the more I compare and ask myself “why should I give up smoking?” The more I realize my dependency on the substance because if it wasn’t such an issue I would be OK by giving it up by the first realization. Don’t get me wrong, many people smoke for medical reasons or whatever the fuck they have going on and if they’re ok with that then that is their choice. But that’s not really my case, so i’m only speaking for myself and my perspective. I began my fast with the idea of giving up smoking but through the weeks passing, meditation sessions, and facing my demons I realized that it is much more than just smoking. I relearned the power of self discipline and the affects it has our soul. Cutting the attention of the middle man (the flesh) and building a strong direct relation to our soul is the most powerful weapon we have against our demons. Our spirit provides the answers we need, whether good or bad, it brings peace and most importantly happiness. The happiness of our soul is the armor of God and the destruction of our demons. I encourage everyone to experience the journey of fasting in your own intentions. It can be a few days, a few weeks, over things like social media, food, or anything you may feel that you need to let go off. Discipline of our flesh is such a powerful ability we have. Using the time to direct our focus of the temptations of the flesh can strengthen us in other aspects within ourselves as long as we have good intention and will in mind. Read books, meditate, & do something progressive within that time and see how much you grow. Eid Mubarak to loved ones everywhere. As we celebrate the end of fasting we celebrate our enlightenment and becoming witnesses to our own growth. I pray for strength in our souls and triumph over our demons. Mashallah.